Saturday, April 5, 2025

Simulating the Mental Image: Just another Mind's Eye? Part 1

Aphantasia is a condition in which individuals are unable to form mental images or visualize scenes in their minds. It is characterized by the absence of a "mind's eye." I know this, because Google's AI just told me this, verbatim.

What is the opposite of aphantasia? Ah.... Could that be a philosophical question in nature? More on this later because I have recently had the thrilling, or perhaps startling, experience tinkering with ChatGTP and the engine's latest image generator skills. In fact, that statement doesn't even feel right for me to write, because I don't do AI for anything. Yet, I have now spent about two hours in total playing around with it -- and I am, well, both excited and scared (aka thrilled) by what this AI can create (or is it 'put together'?) and equally amazed and concerned (startled) by what this new tool could or would do to the still very human world of the creative arts. 

Specifically, I asked ChatGTP to make an image based on a written scene taken from one of my stories. And now that it is done, I want to share those results, share my thrilled and startled/excited and scared reactions, and finally share my philosophical take on this new phenomena of AGBKTIs: Art-Generation-by-Keystroking-the-Internets, or maybe just Art Stroking, for short. Regardless, I am probably the last man on Earth to have learned of AI's potential for greatness: greatness in creativity and greatness in the murdering of human creativity. Or, is AI not great at conjuring nor killing creativity? Or, is AI relevant in our human societies and simply just another form of a mind's eye among us billions of human minds' eyes?

So, the last man on Earth to have learned of AI's potential for greatness begun fiddling around with ChatGTP Image Generator after 20 minutes of being shown what it was, how to access it, and what it was all over again. (I'm a slow learner). A brilliant (and young) MD/PhD student in our research lab was excited when some new update rolled out recently and wanted to show this technodunce (and old) lab manager why he was all abuzz. One of his hobbies is creating graphic art, and he had been working on a couple of scenes that he literally wanted to hang in his room, poster-size. So, while he showed me how to ask the AI to do this and that like color changes and texturing with one of his graphic designs of Lady Liberty in an intimate embrace of Lady Justice (this is not one of my poorly executed ideological scoldings  -- this was his true concept); I was dumbfounded at a) how well AI understood his commands, and b) how fast AI performed the tasks, and c) how my colleague became more and more particular with each rendering and had a difficult time ending his search for perfection. In other words, the brilliant young MD/PhD student did something that he probably shouldn't have done: he encouraged me to try it on one of my stories.

And I did just that!

So, below is my lengthy yet easily travelled excursion through ChatGTP based on a scene from my never-might-ever-be-published Western novel, Burden City, and asked AI to draw the image that I had clearly observed in my mind's eye and, frankly, did not expect AI to interpret well or, dare I say, at all? Thus, this is Part 1 of a two-part blog post, though here's a hint on Part 2: Aphantasia and the HAL 9000 series. Deep stuff, I forewarn ya!

The scene that I took from my story and pasted in ChatGPT takes place in Virginia City, Nevada during the Comstock Lode silver rush circa 1871 and involves the main character, Alastair (30-something Englishman), who takes a routine shortcut to his office that, unfortunately, passes under the balcony of some miserable lodgers. In my mind, I had the alley way a steep decline from one street to the other as is common in Virginia City. I had goats penned in the back of one building as the lodgers were doing their laundry on the second story balcony of their building that butted up near the goat pen. And finally, I had Alastair slightly fearing of being cussed at or even spat on by the beautiful and badly battered Swedish lady arguing with her lover. Did I succeed? Did AI see what I saw? Did I have any right to even look into the electrons and the zeros and ones of AI's brain to find out?

Create an image of the following scene that takes place in Virginia City, Nevada in 1871:

As he passed the goats on three oblique stones serving as steps, Alastair heard familiar voices and looked up to witness yet another scene of what he mentally referred to as ‘The Lodgers’. They had moved in recently and made Alastair’s hidden shortcut a bit dramatic at times. But he preferred the alley, regardless. He didn’t want to take to the nearest cross street just north due to the road’s steepness and monstrous activity. Yet, the truest reason why he didn’t take to it was the embarrassing event that happened there. On his second day of work, he had slipped and, well; stumbled down the street, in broad daylight; and not just stumbled but affected quite a bit of horse clacking as his boot heels worked long and hard to keep him from a direct fall before he eventually lost his battle to gravity entirely. Lots of people came to his rescue he could recall from a sort of oblique memory – pants & boots and dancing dress hems all about him; but no one could save him from his own ego, for it was bruised indefinitely. The Lodgers were a terrible nuisance, but at least their behavior towards themselves, and him, were private and predicable.

Alastair quickly examined this morning’s show on the balcony. The husband – or whatever he was to the relationship – was peeking out from the back door and yelling as the slackened, reddish-blonde-haired woman working her hands inside a large basket teetering on the railing. She stopped and seemed to listen to the rant momentarily before responding with a backhanded wave and some garbled Dutch. They seemed a miserable couple barely surviving day to day together in their unpainted, second story room of a common lodging house; a hastily built establishment that looked in a better state of condition than that of the couple. She was often smoking a cigar while doing laundry, and he was often popping in and out of the door in fits like a crazed lunatic. This morning was no exception as their biting insults slurred by drink and circumstances all too prevalent among their class were once again on full display without a shred of decency to present to the world, or to each other. Even Mr. Mann’s goats that shared the back court were less dramatic and loud and… civilized?

However, this time around, he witnessed the man’s antics involved pushing her before disappearing into the cavernous room only to return and have another push. Alastair stopped in his tracks. He had never seen such abuse before. Yet, the woman didn’t seem to care – she just set her cigar on the wood railing and went back to hanging laundry. Alastair told himself to continue. Besides, he suspected this happened on occasion as he had noticed before that the skeletal woman had bruises on her otherwise porcelain-white arms. But, now; he was witness to the abuse. He didn’t want to be a witness. He didn’t want to be involved.

Go to the sheriff.

He wasn’t sure. 

No. Not enough evidence to go by.

He knew damn well that he was dithering. Before he could force himself to leave, the woman took notice of his staring up at her; her eyes, no doubt, catching his concern. Alastair wanted badly to take a step forward, but he couldn’t. The Lodger now came over to the railing closest to the alley, snuggled into the railing’s corner, her arms crossed tightly and her face shriveling up in a knot – and staring down at him. 

Good Lord!

He wanted to look away, for most prominent today was her bruised face; her left side looking as if smudged with charcoal. His stomach fell. He didn’t know what to say or do; so he continued on his way with poorly measured steps.

Misery loves company!

There was the evidence he needed. Yet, he chose to escape his new found civic responsibilities. She might say something or do something most unpleasant. His feet failed his wish. And out of nowhere, the man appeared behind her, grabbed some laundry from the basket, wadded it up into two balls, and tossed them over the balcony before he disappeared inside it, too, and slammed the door shut. She seemed to know what he did without even looking behind her. Alastair glanced at the balls of laundry now splattered in the mud of the court yard. Perhaps another unwise move. Should he go collect the laundry? At least do that? 

Damn it!

He turned to go fetch it but stopped in his tracks when he heard the woman laugh heartily. The woman was now leaning over the railing and laughing at him; her cigar now shoved into her mouth and rolling to the side of her mouth. Often, he wondered if the woman would purposely spit on him as he passed under – for, she liked to watch him stumble along and would drop some taunting comments – sometimes so vile, that he wanted to lodge a few like words her way if he could ever shed his formality and civility. He couldn't, so, he would tend to speed up his pace as he neared her balcony as he did so today. Unfortunately, it made no difference. He was about to ask her if she wanted him to retrieve the laundry. He decided to not and began moving down the alleyway.

“Hey Baas. Like how I painted my face this morning?”

He stopped and took in her scraggly red hair that flapped from her skull in the chilly gust, and her bruises appeared darker and more circular and looked like a giant hole in one side of her face; while the other side was quite normal, even beautiful. Odd in his timing, he instantly realized that she must have once been an extraordinarily attractive woman before the vices and the poor choice in men. 

“I’m looking real pretty, huh Baas?”

He tried to look away, yet couldn't do anything but dig his fingers into the siding of the building opposite the lodging house and wish he hadn’t been so sympathetic to her sad, miserable state. 

“Madame? Do you require my assistance?”

I can go to the Sheriff’s if you’d like.

The woman leaned over further and muttered, tongue-swollen and probably some side teeth missing, “Do you require my assistance, Baas?” She then spit towards him, but well off her mark.

Alastair instinctively grabbed his hat and pushed it down and took off down the alleyway. No, Alastair thought as he hurried toward the busy boardwalk of C Street now clearly in view.

No, I do not require your assistance.


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Raise the balcony level to the second story and leave everything else untouched.

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Remove the woman at ground level (there should only be one woman that is on the balcony). Make the woman younger and more beautiful on one side of her face and bruised on the other side of her face. Make the man in the hat younger ( around 30 years old).

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Raise the balcony to the 2nd floor.

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Have the man in the hat wear business attire and replace the hat with a bowler hat. Keep everything else the same.

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End of Part 1.

Tuesday, March 18, 2025

Sunday, February 16, 2025

Another great video from Brandon McNulty


This video discusses 11 great tips to get a story done faster.  These are fantastic tips.

I have done most of these things at some time in my life.  How do we do them more consistently?

Monday, September 23, 2024

Hollywood's Bloated Ending Problem--a quick Romulus note


Hollywood's Bloated Ending Problem (Writing Advice) from Brandon McNulty

Just thought I'd share another video from Brandon.  This one talks about endings, and he makes a good reference to Alien: Romulus.  After my last post, I thought this was kinda interesting.

Not only that, but the videos Brandon McNulty does with these Good vs. Bad are lots of fun.

Sunday, September 1, 2024

Romulus?

 I wrote a couple of blogs about Aliens.  

Revisting this because Nick and I just went to see Alien: Romulus.

The Frankenstein theme and ideology that ripples through our culture fascinates me.  I think Jurassic Park stated this well:  

Ahh.  Jeff Goldblum.

Sure, Jurassic Park, Terminator, and Aliens explore this driving passion: man creates a monster that can destroy him.

One of the wonderful ways that the Alien movies does this is in the dual monsters.  Certainly, and perhaps most obviously, man created the aliens (or develops them).  The aliens continue to become more demonic and more terrible, evolving into plagues that infect humans.

But the other monsters that the Alien movies use are the synthetics.  This is such a lovely tension: the synthetics in the movies have cloaked motives and desires, and in the most recent movies (Prometheus and Covenant), some synthetics are almost as monstrous and horrible as the aliens--of course, in much different ways.  The synthetics have incredible characters and tension.

Both the aliens and the synthetics are marvelous and amazing monsters, created by humans, yet the humans do not fully understand the potential devastation or destruction they cause.


The opening of Covenant was beautiful.  In about 2 1/2 minutes, we meet the two main characters, learn their relationship, understand the strange tension between them, and see no aliens.  

This opening is brilliant, lovely, and terrifying.  I probably could watch another 10 minutes of this.  I want more.

Now we get to Romulus.

Huh.

The opening in Romulus is quite strangely, none of these things.  Sure, no aliens.  The opening includes too many characters, too much artificial and unnecessary character development, and dark scenes with no beauty or cloaked tension.

Perhaps the most disappointing character is the synthetic, Andy.  Andy is simple, almost ridiculously so.  Some of the other characters tease him, and Andy appears hurt, but this does not quite make sense.  When the powerful lead woman (girl, doesn't hold a candle to Sigourney Weaver) reprograms Andy, his motives are still obvious--this does not lend to any real tension.  The other characters learn about his motives quickly.

I am keeping this very brief because I wish to focus on the incredible Frankenstonian theme.  This does not get old.  We continue to reuse this theme because, I believe, we fear this in our own lives and own world.  Whether we fear the power of AI taking over our world or the bureauchratic systems controlling our lives, this theme is just as poignant and applicable today.

And yes, I will watch any Alien movie.

Monday, July 15, 2024

Isaac Asimov may be turning in his grave!


Robots fascinate me.

Certainly, I geek out on the Frankenstonian themes in Terminator and all the Alien movies.  The Frankenstein stories that have pervaded our movies and stories in different ways and in different forms amaze me.

We create life.  We play God.  Then, suddenly, in a terrible epiphany, we realize that what we created can destroy us.  

What amazing pride, and what an amazing fall of hubris.  Icarus takes the ultimate fall.  What a brilliant idea.

But, what if--and this is a huge if--we create AI, and the AI doesn't have any intention to take over the world, to take over humanity.  No terminator machines or Alien monsters looking to kill off humanity.

What if it is so much stranger?

What if, in learning human logic and in learning our world, robots learn the same emotional responses?  To break up marriages?  To play with sarcasm?

To commit suicide when they are just fed up of working?

Life imitates art.  I will find a way to write about this.

Tuesday, March 5, 2024

Revisiting Fight Club


After listening to the interview with Chuck Palahniuk (reshared November 18, 2023), I reread
 Fight Club.  If you haven’t listened to this interview, it’s worth it.  He’s fascinating. 

I recall reading Fight Club 20 years ago and thinking that, aside from the ending (which was actually better than the movie), most of the book was similar to the movie.  Strange, but the movie adapted the book well with the voice-over narration and the unreliable narrator.  It worked well.

 

On my most recent reading of Fight Club, however, I focused on Palahniuk’s use of rhetoric and rhythm. 

 

Bob’s big arms were closed around to hold me inside, and I was squeezed in the dark between Bob’s new sweating tits that hang enormous, the way we think of God’s as big.  Going around the church basement full of men, each night we met: this is Art, this is Paul, this is Bob; Bob’s big shoulders made me think of the horizon….

Bob’s shoulders inhale themselves up in a long draw, then drop, drop, drop in jerking sobs.  Draw themselves up.  Drop, drop, drop.

I’ve been coming here every week for two years, and every week Bob wraps his arms around me, and I cry.

Fight Club, 16-17

 

Bob, Chloe, the nameless boss, Marla.  Yes, the movie gave them mass exposure, but the book describes them with metaphors, rhetorical repetition, and yes, a bit of music. 

Add in violence and the lost generation and a crazy narrator, and no wonder this book is such a crazy success.  Funny, when I first read this, I knew the writing was smooth and easy, but I’m developing a deeper appreciation his the complexity of his style.

 

Sunday, December 31, 2023

Saturday, November 18, 2023

Novelist interview-Chuck Palahniuk


This YouTube channel is called, "Soft White Underbelly," and Nick has been listening to these videos.  

Nick played this one for me, and this left me a bit speechless--well, it's Chuck Palahniuk.  His background and story sound like a crazy novel alone, but he talks about writing and workshops and style, too.  

I may need to reread a few of his books and study his style a bit closer.

Sunday, September 24, 2023

Everything You Need to Know About Writing Workshops from ShaelinWrites


This is a reshare from ShaelinWrites.  I've listened to a few of her videos, and she is very insightful and smart.  She has some great thoughts about writing workshops in this video.

Interestingly, we had some drama in our workshop last week, and as long as I have been in this workshop (15 years?), the drama always surprises me.  I expect people to respect others and put in the effort that the writer expects others to put into his piece.  This is not so.

That being said, Shaelin comments on a few things that I would love to reinforce and a few things that I would like to respectfully disagree.

She told a story about a writing teacher that opened the class explaining that the people in workshops will be your best friends, future spouses, and mortal enemies.  I love this.  Writing is so vulnerable that when you trust your workshop groups with your deepest, dearest treasures--and you trust them to criticize your treasures--this suddenly deepens your trust and love for these people.

She says the ideal group is 4 people of your friends because 4 people will have the opportunity to say everything and because they are invested in you and understand you.  I was in a workshop of 4 friends once, and this was horrible.  We met for about two years, but we were unfocused and unorganized.  I am currently in a group that is around 10, depending on the week, and the diversity of opinions is excellent.  Also, I think there is a danger in trusting your friends because they may know you well and make assumptions about what you write based on what they know about you.

In the video, she also talks about forming a workshop based on compatible writers working in compatible genres with similar skill levels.  I'm not sure I agree with this.  Shaelin is talking about a smaller group, but in our slightly larger group, I like working with different writers, different genres, and different strengths and skills.  Different genres shouldn't really matter in a group because we should all be working with the same basic elements and tools, and we should be trying to help each other make our work stronger.  Additionally, different skills and strengths help us all to learn lots of tools and perspectives.

The last section Shaelin talks about is workshop etiquette, and I may suggest adding something about this to our workshop guidelines in the future.  Be objective, avoid moral judgement, help the writer improve,  and don't try to be the smartest or best.  Last, help the writer, and the writer helps everybody; put into the critiques what you expect others to give you.

Lots of good information in this video although it is a little long.  

Tuesday, September 12, 2023

The Contemplation of Gabby's Name, or A Dirge to Gabby

The Naming of Cats 
By T.S. Eliot 

The Naming of Cats is a difficult matter, 
It isn't just one of your holiday games; 
You may think at first that I'm as mad as a hatter 
When I tell you, a cat must have THREE DIFFERENT NAMES.

First of all, there's the name that the family use daily,
Such as Peter, Augustus, Alonzo or James,
Such as Victor or Jonathan, George or Bill Bailey—
All of them sensible everyday names.
There are fancier names if you think they sound sweeter,
Some for the gentlemen, some for the dames:
Such as Plato, Admetus, Electra, Demeter—
But all of them sensible everyday names.
But I tell you, a cat needs a name that's particular,
A name that's peculiar, and more dignified,
Else how can he keep up his tail perpendicular,
Or spread out his whiskers, or cherish his pride?
Of names of this kind, I can give you a quorum,
Such as Munkustrap, Quaxo, or Coricopat,
Such as Bombalurina, or else Jellylorum-
Names that never belong to more than one cat.
But above and beyond there's still one name left over,
And that is the name that you never will guess;
The name that no human research can discover—
But THE CAT HIMSELF KNOWS, and will never confess.
When you notice a cat in profound meditation,
The reason, I tell you, is always the same:
His mind is engaged in a rapt contemplation
Of the thought, of the thought, of the thought of his name:
His ineffable effable
Effanineffable
Deep and inscrutable singular Name.




Our cat, Gabby, died a couple of weeks ago.

 

We didn’t name Gabby.  She came with that name, and I never thought it suited her.  I thought she should have a stronger, more unique name.  T.S. Eliot comes to mind.  She certainly would engage in some sort of rapt contemplation of thought.  Maybe even about her name.


I think Gabby had at least a few other names that we only guessed at.

 

Nick called her Crazy Cavewoman Bat-Killer from time to time.  She earned this name for the murderous, merciless killings about which we bragged (mice and bats primarily).




 


Certainly, she was Dumpster Diver, too, for her veracious appetite and demand for any human scraps we would share with her.  She even dug into our trash for meat wrappers, cat food cans, and certainly anything that smelled like fish.




She was Snuggler, too, because of how she would sleep on my head, hogging the pillow, so I fell asleep with her warm body smushed next to my face.  Funny, after I fell asleep, she would get up and wander off to sleep in the kitchen almost as if she just wanted to make sure I had gotten to sleep.

 


She was Little Puppers.  She would meet us at the door whenever she heard us coming, talking and demanding food and tripping us, almost like a little puppy who was so glad we were home.  

She was Reading Companion.  I would sit in my favorite green chair, and within minutes, she would snuggle next to me.  Even now as I write, I sit to one side of the chair, leaving space for her to join me.


If you are not a cat person or a pet person, I expect you not to understand.  We anthropomorphize our animals and sometimes treat them better than people.  


 

But I miss my little, Cavewoman, Bat-killer, Dumpster Diver, Puppers, and whatever her Ineffable Name is—the name that was much more dignified and wilder than Gabby.


 

Saturday, July 22, 2023

The First Guy To Ever Write Fiction--reshare from Ryan George


I recently found Ryan George, and he does these skits about the "First guy ever to" do such and such.  I find these videos quite amusing.

The one above is about fiction, so I'm sharing this here.  Enjoy!